July 2011
June 2011
alright! leaving to AX in a couple of hours!
I’ll be aking my laptop with me because the hotel has free wifi, so i might be able to post pictures and stuff but yeah
see you guys there!
my dads hair is much longer then mine
this is my main argument whenever he gives me a pointed look about my crossdressing
ksdflskjdflkjsdf. wait. your tablet.
what kind is eet.
its a Kanvus Life 106
I've been wanting to ask you this for a while, but never had the time.. Anywho I remember you said in one of your blog entries or reblogs that you used to be chubby or whatever but you lost all that weight.
Do you have any advice for how to lose weight? I'm kinda chubby and I was really hoping to hear how you lost some of your weight. :)
oh that was a long time ago lol
to be honest, as much as everyone hates to deal with it (i know i hate it), but counting calories and getting tons of exercise is the absolute best way to loose weight. it doesnt happen overnight and can take months, but it’s the best solution I could see.
I honestly lost all of my weight because i became more active (walking to and from the busstop and home, taking PE in school, that type of stuff), and my food supply was more limited so i wasnt eating all day long (the reason i gained so much). Honestly, I know full well the only reason i lost weight was because food isn’t as readily available to me because i never have the money to buy it, so most of my weight loss is a combination of lots of exercise and malnutrition (i’m anemic and get dizzy spells and fevers all the time because of it).
But i stand by that exercise, food portion control, and calorie counting are fantastic (albeit horribly tedious and no fun at all) ways to become healthy. I really stress to people who ask me how i lost so much weight that the way I did it was not healthy and im not healthy now, so their and your main goal should be reaching a healthy weight and feeling happy with your body :3
thank you for 1400+ followers!!
you guyyyysss aaah i just got done saying thank you for 1300 ;~; all my cries
when AX is over i’ll start drawing up some proper thank yous i promise!
- Chii says:
- usually my friends moms demand to meet me
- like im a sexual predator
- Phoski says:
- but you are
- Chii says:
- yeah but i dont want them to think about that then they wont give me their daughters
happy birthday holypolaris
thanks for writing angst for us
have this as a small token of gratitude <3
reblobbing for zera-face
i will draw something when i am done making dinner boop boop
Oh my god last one for now. It is making me sad but ahh hurts so goood. Also, I need to get ready to go out and you know. Celebrate. Lmao. So. Maybe I'll write this whole thing properly later. Tonight or something.
"I hate you," Billy sobs, face pressed into Teddy's neck and arms wrapped tightly around him. His nails are digging into Teddy's shoulder-blades and he knows it won't hurt him, but he's not sure he'd care if it would.
"I know," Teddy says softly, voice breaking. "I know."
Billy tightens his grip and bites down hard on Teddy's neck. The muscles in his face are sore and tired from crying but he can't stop. "I hate--" Fuck. He can't even. Just.
ffffffffffffffffffffff you celebrate your brains out before you write this up and make everyone cry out theirs ok? very happy birthday thanks for doing this and making everyone cries ;~;
Billy's head jerks towards the door. It's not a knock, but instead a light fluttering of paper. He frowns. He waits until he can hear Teddy shuffle away before he slowly rises from his desk and drags himself to the door. His heart is pounding.
There's a small scrap of paper just under the door, and he picks it up and squeezes his eyes shut for a moment to process everything. There's a heart haphazardly drawn on it, and when he opens his eyes and flips it over, it just says, "Also, I'm sorry." Billy doesn't even get a chance to breathe in before the tears start spilling down over his cheeks again.
teddy u dick dont u do thiz to poor bibby his heart caint take it and neither can mine
I blame you for the fact that I am sitting here writing angst on my birthday..
"Shouldn't we be quiet?" the boy asks, and Billy shakes his head and tugs his hand a little harder, eyes focused on his feet as he leads them to his bedroom.
He doesn't look up at Teddy, though he's aware they're being watched, and instead just says, "No, nobody's around." He glances up at the boy -- he has black hair, he'd forgotten -- and then pulls him through his doorway.
He doesn't bother to close the door.
kasdhgakdjgh I LIKE THIS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, EVEN THOUGH IM THE ONE GETTING THE PRESENT WITH THIS
well, I can't draw but..
Teddy can hear Billy through the wall, sobbing into his pillow, scrunching the blanket up around him. It doesn't make Teddy feel any better -- if anything it makes him feel worse to know that he's done this, but. But. But he has to listen. He rests against the wall, heart stuck in his throat, choking him as Billy cries and cries and cries until he can't cry anymore. Teddy shoves his palms into his eyes and waits until Billy is silent, and then lies down. But he never falls asleep.
awwwww awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
My god stop making my brain think over the angsssst :< Makes me want to write this so bad, but..
do it o3o
Billy staring at his feet with a blank expression while he leads a random fling to his room, andTeddy can only stare at him from his doorway because its not his place to say anything now that he broke up with Billy.
doesnt it make you want to just
write it
or draw it
hmm? HMM??
Owenlouis said: omg, you guys, this is beautifully sad it hurts. so uh… anyone gonna write this? :D
personally i am poop at writing, so probably no fic done by me
but boy do i want to see fic of this now gdi ;A;
lol i’d write it but it would take me forever probably. I do like writing fics that make people cries though
so while i was trying to drift off to sleep last night, i was laying in bed thinking about gay guys as usual
and i started thinking about Teddy and Billy because of the drawing Kaciart made of them broken up while Teddy still lived with the Kaplans and he could hear Billy crying all the time aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
anyway
So i was thinking about Teddy having broken up with Billy and having to see him every day being miserable. But then eventually Billy started bringing new guys back home into his room and Teddy had to DEAL WITH IT even though he wanted to tear those guys apart for being near Billy but HEY he was the one who broke up so he knows he can’t say anything because he’d just be a dick.
o_o anyway just thought i would share that because im pretty sure it morphed into a dream and so that was my dream last night.
the mental images
the angst
I on the other hand have played with Teddy giving Billy an extensive silent treatment for putting himself in danger, to a near-breakup point.
Like first when they come home they have a nice reunion with the rest of the Kaplans and Teddy just distances himself from Billy for a while (like even asks for time to think?) and holes himself up inside his room when they’re not patrolling/in school.
Anyway, this could actually be a base for a prequel to your story lol.
U3U as horrible as it is, the idea of Teddy and Billy being apart even though they still want to be together makes for a really juicy
fantasyuhh i mean like idea… Plus Teddy having to listen to Billy cry in his room over him was sad enough, the thought of how he would feel seeing Billy taking some random guy in and then hearing SEX NOISES being made with a guy that wasnt him iasjfkasjdbngsgwhy do i like torturing characters?
Ah man the massive amount of awkward it would cause if Billy started dating others afhjbadkfj.
just
FFFFF I FEEL SO EVIL
ZERA’S THE QUEEN
so while i was trying to drift off to sleep last night, i was laying in bed thinking about gay guys as usual
and i started thinking about Teddy and Billy because of the drawing Kaciart made of them broken up while Teddy still lived with the Kaplans and he could hear Billy crying all the time aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
anyway
So i was thinking about Teddy having broken up with Billy and having to see him every day being miserable. But then eventually Billy started bringing new guys back home into his room and Teddy had to DEAL WITH IT even though he wanted to tear those guys apart for being near Billy but HEY he was the one who broke up so he knows he can’t say anything because he’d just be a dick.
o_o anyway just thought i would share that because im pretty sure it morphed into a dream and so that was my dream last night.
the mental images
the angst
I on the other hand have played with Teddy giving Billy an extensive silent treatment for putting himself in danger, to a near-breakup point.
Like first when they come home they have a nice reunion with the rest of the Kaplans and Teddy just distances himself from Billy for a while (like even asks for time to think?) and holes himself up inside his room when they’re not patrolling/in school.
Anyway, this could actually be a base for a prequel to your story lol.
U3U as horrible as it is, the idea of Teddy and Billy being apart even though they still want to be together makes for a really juicy fantasy uhh i mean like idea… Plus Teddy having to listen to Billy cry in his room over him was sad enough, the thought of how he would feel seeing Billy taking some random guy in and then hearing SEX NOISES being made with a guy that wasnt him iasjfkasjdbngsg
why do i like torturing characters?
so while i was trying to drift off to sleep last night, i was laying in bed thinking about gay guys as usual
and i started thinking about Teddy and Billy because of the drawing Kaciart made of them broken up while Teddy still lived with the Kaplans and he could hear Billy crying all the time aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
anyway
So i was thinking about Teddy having broken up with Billy and having to see him every day being miserable. But then eventually Billy started bringing new guys back home into his room and Teddy had to DEAL WITH IT even though he wanted to tear those guys apart for being near Billy but HEY he was the one who broke up so he knows he can’t say anything because he’d just be a dick.
o_o anyway just thought i would share that because im pretty sure it morphed into a dream and so that was my dream last night.
wasting my internet to send my love~
but you are worth it
i think about you every day
in my heart
very gay
kat my love you waste away
your cruise time internet
every day
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
